Guilty

Accusations often evoke emotions varying between defiance and submission. Wrote this one as a memory of my tryst with a guilt that was never mine.

Through rising smoke
That clouds dry vision
I watch her grow till
She drowns the light
Its hard being human
When you're asked
To pay the price, they've
Sentenced me to stark
Desertion, played cruelty
Against every honest move
The phoenix once rose
Then they killed the myth

Questions crowd, they won't
Let go, what happened
To the beauty I had inside
Of me, a childhood that
Taught love for enemies
Finds subtle sadism the
Answer to predicaments
You say I was wrong
I couldn't agree more
Its criminal to offer a hand
Treachery smiles behind
Those who serve without
Greed, but then it is greed
To reach out, greed that
Drives innocents to lust
For a share in salvation
Thats slowly escaping us all

They nailed Him, you strike
Again, nailing me against
The reason I stand defiant
These blows never cease
Till your righteous whims
Have found their end,
Its pleasure watching men
Wresting away a stray tear
You've mocked my pleas,
Taken me down roads
Fugitives tread and I
Intrude into the shady
Realm of those losing
Sight of purpose at a
Time where agony gives
Way to ecstasy, I marvel
At the ignorance that
Justifies your actions, it all
Comes back, I see it in
Little eyes disguising an
Outburst that'll shatter
Fickle pride and bring you
Where I stand now, yet you
Won't see the other side
I now dream to set foot on,
Your white lies stare you in
The face while I struggle
In my return to innocence
Knowing truth will prevail,
I was meant to..